I feel like I’m being realistic finally, but I keep analyzing to make sure that I’m not slipping down a slope of cynicism… There are several things that I have to remind myself to focus on to keep things in perspective (since, as we should all eventually realize, everything really is just a matter of perspective):
1) There is so much more to life than this silly shit with which I occupy my brain. Recently I’ve seen things about eavesdropping laws being revised to make it illegal (as in a class 1 felony- the same as rape) for a private citizen to record a law enforcement officer or other public official without their consent. It’s not a street that goes both ways; the police film people without their consent all the time. Ever seen COPS? You think those people signed waivers? So when they do it and make citizens look like fucktard assholes, it’s fine. When we do it to maybe fight back non-violently against police brutality, it’s a FELONY? Hi police state, here we come.
There was something else I saw that reminded me to do more than I am. This is life. This is it. It’s all we’ve got. There’s no continue at the end. There’s no reset button. If there’s anything you’ve ever wanted to do, DO IT. What are you waiting for? What are you doing that’s so important that you can’t make your own dreams come true? And that’s exactly what I’ve been asking myself. So I thought about things that I’m passionate about; something that I REALLY want to do. I’m finally going to take some steps to get involved in something that’s much bigger than me. My time might not seem to me like it’s that valuable sometimes these days, but I know a way to make it matter to someone. In that, I’ll be helping myself so much… Just having an outlet for my passion will be so fulfilling.
2) Que sera sera. What’s for you will not pass you by. Seriously, stop fretting about things you can’t control because fretting won’t change the fact that you can’t control them, nor will it have an impact on the outcome of whatever situation over which you’re fretting! Jeez. This has been said so many times in so many ways, you’d think we’d all have it through our thick skulls by now. I need to keep reminding myself, though. “There are two paths to being rich: get more or want less” ~the back of an old guy’s shirt. It’s true, though. Enjoy what you do have instead of pining for what you don’t have. Seems fundamental, right?
Ha, of course I don’t mean to settle. I never settle. I never want to. There is always a way to be better, faster, stronger, more efficient, kinder, etc. Don’t stop improving, don’t stop moving in your right direction, but balance that with enjoying where you are when you’re there.
Okay, I think I feel better now 